One video every day for one year
June 2012 - June 2013
After earning a BFA in 2009, I experimented with different modes of being, developing an anarchic lifestyle and playing in a few experimental bands that, although they toured the country, never went anywhere. It was during this time that I developed a love/hate relationship to social media and deleted myself from the Internet. I quickly felt an emptiness from the lack of online interaction, and created a YouTube channel, sickcakez, to document and share the mundanity of spending life on the Internet. For one year - from June 19, 2012 to June 19, 2013 - using my laptop camera, I posted a video of myself “doing nothing” to the channel, with a song playing in the background to delineate the run time of the videos. Created during a period while I was mostly unemployed, the videos stand as an archive of time wasted and of the desire to communicate in an age when the very meaning of communication is constantly in flux, creating a universal existential conundrum.
The moniker I used for this YouTube channel is "sickcakez," one that I often use online. It is derived from an anecdote recounted in the diary of Arthur Schopenhauer, of eating cakes stolen from his nursemaid. He said it was the “sickly taste of the cakes” which were forbidden to him that informed his ideas about desire and craving as the cause of suffering and pain. Here, my desire for communication is documented as the cause of my own suffering and pain.
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Image and brief clips from Alternating:Currents (Part I of II) at Lithium Gallery, December 2017. For this show, I wanted viewers to have an intimate interaction with the piece, as though they were viewing it in bed on their own laptop. I installed a bed in the gallery and set my lap top on it with headphones. I used a Chrome extension to prevent viewers from navigating to any page that was not a part of the playlist.